I Don't Eat My Friends


Winter break ended Tuesday, that is why I haven’t posted in a while. With school until 4 and work until 10 (then add in a 20-40 minute ride home then 2+ hours of homework before bed) I just haven’t had the time to post.
Even now I’m typing this while changing into my uniform (for work). So please understand, I am not going on another “hiatus”, I am simply waiting for a free 10 minutes that I can actually post something worth reading. Honestly, I haven’t even had time to read my favorite blogs or webcomics!

Love and see you soon


Boy walks in on a girl in her bra and underwear. Boy gets slapped and called a pervert.

Boy walks in on a girl tryng on a bikini. Girls asks boy what he thinks. Girl and boy walk out to the swimming pool.

What do you notice about these two stories?

Ever since I was little (around the time I got my frist ‘training bra’ Oh dont get me started on those or I will be here ALL day) I have always questioned the bra and underwear VS the bikini.  Why was it NOT ok for someone to see you in your bra and underwear but it WAS ok for someone to see you in a bikini? They cover the same amount, they look the same (especially if you get a matching bra and panties set), and some bikinis are more revealing then a bra and a pair of underwear.
To me walking out and around in a bikini and then getting pissed at someone who sees you in your underwear seems a little hypocritical to me. Where is this line that tells us whats ok and whats “too far”?
Once when I was 7 or 8 I didnt have a swim suit. So, not wanting to miss out on the pool fun, I put on my matching flower training bra and panties. As I ran out the door my mom called out for me too come back…Acrtually she called while running and screaming, grabbed me, and dashed back into the house. Her cheeks were red as she told me I couldn’t leave the house in my underwear. “But why mama? It looks just like a bikini. So it’s a bikini today.”
“Nono dear, underwear is underwear! And should never be worn without clothes over it!” They way she looked, talked, and acted showed that she was incredibly embaressed and that I should be too. But I wasnt, I was just confused. Especially after she handed me a princess bikini she had bought for me and told me to change into it. They looked the same to me, but I did what Mama had asked.

As I reached the pool my neighbors (a boy and his sister) asked me “what happened to your pretty flower swim suit? I like that one better.”

{10/01/2010}   Are You On Your Period?

It’s that time of month again. No, not time to pay the bills. Time to ignore everything the “little woman” has to say because (more than usual) her thoughts are being controlled by her hormones. There is nothing that ircks me more then when my mother asks me “Are you on your period?”. Even more then when a boy goes “Well aren’t you pissy. It must be “that” time of the month”. Because, not only is my mother COMPLETELY disregarding my feelings, she is also re-enforcing that “women get mad only/especially on their period” myth!
(First off: Im bleeding. Which mean spending money on pads/tampons/whatever you use, ruined underwear (and sleeppants for when the “gift” sneaks up at night), and knife stabbing pains (although, ever since becoming veg they haven’t been all that bad). So if I want to be mad, I think I have every bloody reason too be.
But I’m not. My attitude doesn’t change in the slightest when I’m bleeding. If anything I’m more sympathetic to people.)
Everytime I get mad and ‘raise my voice’ at my mother, I know THOSE words are comming. “Are you on your period?”
‘No, mom. Im not”
“Well it must be comming! Your acting so pissy!”
“Actually, mom, it just ended a week ago so I wont be due for a while/no it hasnt come this month yet”
“This ‘attitude’ must be leftover from it then/well its comming soon! See how mean your being?”
GRAH! Mom, COME ON! How can the STRONG mother I looked up to (from ages 6-13) be so..soo…URg I dont know what to call her.
You heard me right mom, teacher, boy, anyone else who dare say I’m not pooping rainbows that day because of my period. Its not the bloods fault, its YOURS.

Heres another thing. Why can we not just say period? Whats wrong with saying “I’m bleeding?” Why do we have to use such stupid sayings instead? I hate them

  • Riding the cotton pony
  • The Crimson wave
  • That time of the month
  • Aunt Flo is visiting
  • I’m on the rag
  • I’m gathering floss
  • It’s my mooncycle
  • T.O.M
  • Taking Carrie to prom
  • My “friend”
  • Old faithfuth
  • The red flag
  • the red coats are comming
  • Red death
  • the curse
  • bloody mary
  • woman troubles
  • Lady in red
  • Mother nature’s “gift”
  • Ect…

If there ever comes a time that I need to mention I’m on my period I am fairly blunt. “I’m bleeding” or “On my period” is enough for me. Theres no need to try and mask it.

{09/01/2010}   Mind Your Business

I’ve had my younger brother all week. He’s 3 and a p.i.t.a (pain in the ass) but I love him. So instead of keeping both him and me cooped up inside all week I took him places.
Today that said place was (well the main focus is) Walmart. I needed some ingrediants and he wanted bananas. Our shopping experiance was fine. He wanted to carry the basket, put things in it, and pay the cashier. And, like most kids under the age of 7, as soon as we got to an isle that had foods he wanted, he sprouted 4 extra hands.
Now you know theres a down side comming right? Well you should.

All throughout our shopping I couldnt help but notice people throw disgusted, concerned, or pity looks our direction. Followed, of course, with whispering to whom ever they were with. One woman even had the balls to walk up to me and tell me how “a baby like you shouldn’t have a baby of her own. And if you weren’t so busy with your legs in the air you would know how to act like a proper lady”
Who the frick does she think she is? She had no right to walk up to someone she had never seen before and lecture them! And what makes her think her “assumption” was even right? (which it clearly wasn’t).
What if my brother really was my child? But what if, instead of being a ‘slut’ I was raped? Is that really how you should talk to someone (rape victim or not) you don’t know? No, of course not! I could only imagine if she had gone up to someone who had been in that situation. How much that would have hurt.
It’s just plain rude!

But luckily it was me she ran into. “He’s my brother, mind your business”

{09/01/2010}   And She’s Back

Wow I’ve been gone a long time. Was it because of school? Well the first 2 weeks of my dissaperance was because of finals. But after that it was pure lack of inspiration. The two blogs I continued to read (thefbomb.org and therantingteenager.blogspot.com) were doing a good job with posts and I continued to reply to them (I even got an article posted on thefbomb. Poorly written as it was I’m still happy (link: http://thefbomb.org/2010/01/a-walking-chest/ ). But now I’m back. And my mind is full of things to post about. But I think I shall wait until one speaks up loudly enough before posting. Right now everything is so scrambled in my head that a post simply wouldnt come out right.

Thanks Rantingteenager for getting me back in the game.

So you either hate twilight or your some crazy psycho screaming fan girl about it. But what about those in between? What about those who liked the books (once you get into the story you dont even notice the so-so writing) and thinks the movies are ok (with low expectations to begin with because no matter how great the books are movies made from them almost always suck)? Well thats me.
I saw new moon today…..I have to say there were times I almost had to leave the theater because I was laughing soooo hard! There was this one part, for example, where Bella said “kiss me” and Edward looked like he was in pain as he leaned down, then pain turned into a ‘GROOOOOSSSSS Dont make me touch her!!!!’ look.

There is one thing I like more then twilight (book or movie) and that things that make fun of twilight! (mostly fan vids). Here are a few of my favorites:
EDIT: Some of the vids might run weird….if so, just use the links provided with the names


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Others that are kinda funny:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goix7jFXD9Q&NR=1&feature=fvwp (this ones kinda funny…eh not that great)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ax5axcXAODg&feature=related  Funny but lots of “complaining” BEST part is between :44-:54
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2MKz0gkcgAo (this one is actually really good! Very well put together and awomely done…not so much making fun of)
ILL NEVER BE AN EMO VAMPIRE!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1glNuQiE77E (kinda funny but sooo dumb)

Know any good ones? SEND EM TO ME! lol I love watching them

In order in which they occured:

Last night I realized my face (skintone) is even. So I did not wear make up today. The results? I was extremly confident and way more out going then usually. Im pretty sure I was check out by at least two guys (not that I care, but the fact that I actually noticed being check out (or check out at all) is strange and foriegn to me.

First class: we slipt up into groups. Boys, girl. There were ofur boys, and at least 8-9 girls. We had to come up with questions to ask the opposite sex and they had to answer honestly.

Girls questions(for the boys):
1. Why do you always answer with “I guess” or “sure” or “I dunno”.
Answer: (silence for 5 minutes then) one of the boy says “..”I guess (laughter from the girls) ….(the boys finally get it, laughter from the boys)…I guess its because we..um…dont want to offend you if we dont think you’ll like the answer.
2 Why is it ok for you to be gross but not us? (ex: burping, farting, wearing the same jeans or boxers 3 days in a row, touching your junk then picking up objects/food)
Answer: Thats too personal (no answer). But grirls just cant burp its not “lady like” and its only funny when we fart/burp. (one of the boys did say he encourages his friends who are girls to burp cause he thinks its funny)
3. Why can girls flirt with you (when your dating) but if a guy flirts with us you freak out?
answer: we usually cant tell when girls flirt with us (BUUULLL) and we know how guys are.
4 Why dont you notice changes? (new hair cut/color, makeup ect)
We see you as a whole, not little details ( I call buuulll on this too)
5 Why cant you clean up after yourselves?
no answer

There were more but I cant remember right now…sorry

They asked things like
1. Why does it take you so long to shop for clothes when we can just go in and grab jeans and a shirt and leave?
2. Why do you always need to know where we are going and when we will be out when we say “im going out”
3. Why do we have to be intimite with you when were dating? (like kissing/hugging/ saying I love you/hand holding)
….lol I think there were like 2-3 more but i dont remember right now.

After getting out from my test early I was thirsty, but I dont trust the vending machines at school. But I was REALLY thirsty so I tried. I put in my 1.25 and waited…nothing. “Greeat” I thought, then  *clunk clunk* out popped a Vault! YAY! I turn to leave *clunk clunk* out popped ANOTHER Vault DOUBLE YAY!!!! I forgive you vending machine.

After school at a stoplight  saw this:

Yes, I admit that I am an addict….or maybe I’m obsessed…or I’m just plain weird. Hell, I could be all three for all  you know! Either way, I cant help myself.
Whenever I find a book on the disgusting facts about american food and/or food industries or how certain foods cause and cure health problems I cant stop myself. I snatch the book and devour it within a few hours. Theres a certain charm to the stomach churning pictures these books tell about.
To give you a sample of the kind of books I mean:
Skinny Bitch ( Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin)
In Defence of Food (Micheal Pollan)
Diet for a New America (John Robbins)
Natural Health, Natural Medicine (Andew Weil)
Its not even JUST books but websties too!
Yes I know I have a problem, Ive already admited to that remember? Your the one who is still readding.

Chew On This (Eric Scholosser and Charles Wilson)

When I saw a book with sick looking fast food on the front and a promise of “Everything you DONT want to know about fast food” I was ecstatic to start reading it.
The first four chapters were nothing more than a history on fast food and how it came to be. Which is fine, nothing wrong with a little history (though there were only 9 chapters). The next three chapters have a little bit of information but you could get more from a 4 minute video from PETA. Then the last 2 chapters were on a kid debating on whether or not he should get gastric bypass surgery and a woman who opened a restaurant and helped a schools lunch program. 
I have to say, I feel very mislead and very disappointed. Hopefully his other book Fast Food Nation will be better.


Why do I purposfully do things that I know will just end up pissing me off? Things I know the answer too already but feel the need to prove yet again. *angry sigh* It all started a few days ago…..

It was on my day off, I had woken up around 9:30 and did not feel like doing a single thing. It was only around lunch did I realize I was out of kikoman (A VERY important ingrediant to me). So I brushed my hair, threw on some clothes and looked in the mirror and thought “screw the eyeliner, its only walmart”. (Normally I only put on eyeliner and a bit of foundation on my cheeks (otherwise they look red dilicious apple red) but not today). I didnt think much of my appearance, I thought I looked fine and somewhat pretty even though the color of my face wasnt even.
So off on my adventure to walmart I went. Buying kikoman and browsing through the rest of the food section. I smile and waved at a little girl, she waved back. But then I got a weird look from another shopper. So on my wandering went smiling and waving at people (in my attempt to be more “socially friendly” or whatever crack shit my friend goes on about that i’m lacking). But I noticed, usually when I give a forced smile and wave alot more people smile and wave back. But not today, I got some disgruntled looks or was simply passed over. Even the old woman at the library wasnt as friendly today.

Today it hit me.

Today was also my day off, and, after my little brother was picked up by his grandmother, I began getting ready. I put on the same jeans and tank I had on the day at walmart. Brushed my hair the same way. Only this time I threw a button down long sleeve on top of the tank (and rolled the sleeves up), added a hat, and put on my foundation and eyeliner. I looked very “cute”
I went to walmart: tons of smiles and waves from people (even ones I had not waved too first), I went to the library: the old woman was exceptionally nice today, and more smiles/waves. I went to the other library: smiles but the woman who works there was very mean. I didnt mind though, shes grumpy no matter when I go there, I think she just hates her job.

So, any guesses?


Theres this vegetarian in my Brit Lit class who tends to…well I dont like the image of vegetarians she gives off. Everyday she only brings salads. Then shouts “what kind of a vegetarian are you?!” when I yet again tell her that I detest and never eat salads. Backing up what others in the class think about vegetarians ONLY eatting salads. And they even ask me what I eat when I tell them I dont eat salads (apparently they cant see the beautiful meals I bring everyday and share with my friend Alex). She also goes about screaming how everyone in our class is a canibal for eatting meat. -_- Which is comepletely ridiculous. And when I try to rationally explain about a pig being smarter then a dog and 3 year old child and other totally backed up facts and so on she interrupts me with screaming about stupid things that causes the rest of the class to ignore my facts and shrug them off as more “crazy vegetarian” nonsence.

Oh and..heh heh I found a couple more aprons I like: (all from sassy girl)

Prairie Gothic- Sassy  and Chic ApronChocolate Polka Dot - Ruffled Susie Sassy ApronChocolate Polka Dot - Sassy and Chic Apron (yes these two are similar)Joel Dewberry's Deer Valley - Scarlett Chic -  Sassy Apron with Bib

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